Silly, silly player continuing to get played at his game. I am not even playing the game anymore but today I just won again by karma’s default. I had nothing but good wishes for this person – Mr Wannabe Big Tyme player with apparently no game. Back then what I knew for a fact was that one day the tables are going to be turned and I will have the upper hand.
In all honesty, the table still hasnt totally turned whereby I envision myself to be sitting on the upper table like a Queen sitting on her thrown saying “What? Huh? What now?” Serve a taste of his own poison.
From the begining I set the nature of the game and I played by it’s rules. He played the game but I moved it to it’s beautiful end – atleast for me.
So no, no tables turned yet. But today he got exposed for his pathetic’ness and my name was right there at the front row of the situation. It maybe alleged that I had some influence on it but he knows that I will never admit to it, and it could all just be a big coincidence. Well it is true that I had no direct influence on whatever happened; atleast in terms of directly telling people what to do. I just merely offered my advise and things just effortlessly fell into place.
When it was a game, it was really a big game, somedays I lost, somedays I won and when I lost, I lost very badly. I felt all sorts of emotions during that time, and very strongly. I felt hurt, lost, confused and my self-esteem and self-worth plunged 20,000 Leagues below the sea.
Getting myself out of the game took a lot of energy for me. In the moment it felt like a very bad dream but looking back it was a beautiful time of experiencing raw human emotions and from it unfolded this me – that feels new. Today after many months of not strongly thinking about it, and of not talking about it, I feel good, not because of todays well received piece of information about what had happened, but because of this realization that I am so outgrown all that nonsense. I feel like I carry arry extra weight now after surviving, and apparently continuing to be victorious at that same old tired game.
Kaliova 